Today was one of those bittersweet days. I slept a little late, but we still managed to get up and get to church. William was fighting church the whole way, but when I picked him up from the Kid's Worship he said "Mom that was awesome!" Robert had fun tales of Sunday School too. We had a guest speaker for church this morning and he opened my eyes to something that God has been laying on my heart, but I've been too scared to follow God. He talked about how God led him to prison ministry and wanting to have God in his heart more and how he struggled with letting God in and letting go of the world. It was like this man was peeking into my brain! I struggle so much with giving God my all and turning it over to Him. Now don't get me wrong, I'm not going to go into prison ministry, but God has been laying something else on my heart for years now. God has been trying to lead me to foster parenting for years. Wait you say, you foster animals, and yes I believe God wants me to foster animals too, but I think God wants me to be a foster for children. Quite frankly it all terrifies me, which is why I haven't followed God. I haven't given it to God and let him lead me where I needed to go with it. So, I'm writing this and then I'm emailing a friend who works with Connie Maxwell and something related to DSS and fostering. I'm going to tell her what I have told all of you. I don't know how I will do it financially, or time, or space, or anything, but I do have faith in God and I know that God can move mountains and that if God truly wants me to do this and is leading me to it, then nothing can stop me from doing it. Tonight I ask for your prayers friends. God, please help me to have faith, to be strong, to have courage, to follow where you lead even when I can not see where I am going. ~Amen.
I almost didn't go to church this morning, but look at what I would have missed. WOW!
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